i’m new here. sup.

i’m pretty private. i like sharing my opinions on things because i have them and want to share them, but i’m uncomfortable with the notion of “branding myself” to “the world” in order to try to game algorithms for engagement. i don’t want to spend a second on twitter/x. i don’t want to try to beat the endless product ads on instagram for people’s attention. or the ai posts on all platforms, for that matter. i just want to write, and sometimes take pictures, and for the people who find me to find something meaningful in the things i put out there. and i understand that in order for that to happen, there’s gotta be a way to find me online.

my idealism about this stuff has drawn out two of my most destructive traits, perfectionism and procrastination, which are a nasty little symbiotic tandem, the former often begetting the latter; the online landscape is far from where i wished it was, and i’d rather wait until it improves to be a part of it. but yeah, if i didn’t suck it up, i’d be waiting forever, and it’s out of my control regardless. so here’s my site. i have no idea what i’m doing, but i’ve driven myself crazy trying to research how to “market myself” “properly,” and whatever. if you made it here and you’re reading this, i’m grateful (and also something must have gone really well or really badly).

also, all lower case is so cool, right? it’s annoying to me, too, and i' need to grow out of it so people from the lit world don’t immediately roll their eyes at me. i’ll grow out of it. to be honest — swear — i just like the aesthetic of it for the site.